Saturday, November 10, 2007

homesickness

Last week I had a bit of a breakdown. I was getting ready to go to sleep and suddenly, out of nowhere, I was overwhelmed with feelings of homesickness. It was like I got hit with a 10 foot wave, and was in that place where you're trying to find your way to the surface, but you've been tumbled about so much, you don't know which way is up.

The tears flowed for about an hour, and then I fell asleep. Thankfully, I have an amazing husband who comforted me through the ordeal.

These feelings of homesickness are new for me, I've never experienced anything like it, I guess since I've never been away from home this long (college doesn't really count since it was a 45 minute drive to my house). I'm not regretting this move at all, just missing everyone and everything that is close to my heart.

When we were getting ready to leave Richmond and had to say a bajillion difficult good-byes, I continued to remind myself that if we didn't have these wonderful, close relationships, these good-byes would be easy. If the goodbyes were easy, life would be a lot more difficult than leaving Richmond was.

Now I'm reminding myself that God is working through this sadness, showing me how His perfect love will carry me through.

One day we'll be leaving Dornoch, and the elation of seeing our friends and family again will be combined with the sadness of leaving our new friends and home here. Until then, I'm sure the waves of homesickness will come and go many times...just more chances for me to gain appreciation for all those people I'm missing.

5 comments:

Valerie said...

We have waves of missing you guys, too. It's typically at church and at pot luck - I think I still expect you guys to walk in.

Don't worry! May will be here so soon!

I'm Jennifer said...

Thanks Val, it's great to know we're missed!

andi said...

It was great to hear your voice today! Hopefully our timing will work out soon.

Anonymous said...

You are taking your first trip far from home better than I did, be encouraged (I got depressed & lost 20 lbs in 3 weeks). I suppose it helps to have a companion, too. You will probably experience something like that a few more times, but you are growing and learning to stand as a wife & adult now- the "leaving and cleaving" part of marriage that maybe you couldn't have done at home with your parents close by. This is not bad at all and not a suggestion that anything was wrong in your situation in Richmond (your parents are doing a great job with my daughter, I admire them a lot), but this is an opportunity to grow, not something to fear. God is molding you as a person and as a couple. Trust me, this is a powerful opportunity. Be Encouraged!
Drew

I'm Jennifer said...

Thanks for the encouraging words Drew!