Last week I had a bit of a breakdown. I was getting ready to go to sleep and suddenly, out of nowhere, I was overwhelmed with feelings of homesickness. It was like I got hit with a 10 foot wave, and was in that place where you're trying to find your way to the surface, but you've been tumbled about so much, you don't know which way is up.
The tears flowed for about an hour, and then I fell asleep. Thankfully, I have an amazing husband who comforted me through the ordeal.
These feelings of homesickness are new for me, I've never experienced anything like it, I guess since I've never been away from home this long (college doesn't really count since it was a 45 minute drive to my house). I'm not regretting this move at all, just missing everyone and everything that is close to my heart.
When we were getting ready to leave Richmond and had to say a bajillion difficult good-byes, I continued to remind myself that if we didn't have these wonderful, close relationships, these good-byes would be easy. If the goodbyes were easy, life would be a lot more difficult than leaving Richmond was.
Now I'm reminding myself that God is working through this sadness, showing me how His perfect love will carry me through.
One day we'll be leaving Dornoch, and the elation of seeing our friends and family again will be combined with the sadness of leaving our new friends and home here. Until then, I'm sure the waves of homesickness will come and go many times...just more chances for me to gain appreciation for all those people I'm missing.